As I said before, I'm going to keep on updating this blog even after classes ended. I needed someplace to reflect on my thoughts, maybe even post some more artwork, and rant about things about my life and society since no one else really listens to me about those things anyway. It doesn't even matter if no one reads this anymore, but that's okay.
So, this past week of school, I've just been lazy and sleeping all of the time. I need to get out of this mode of staying up all night and then sleeping all day since that is my general habit. I've been trying to apply for schools (even though it's a bit late for that), but it doesn't hurt to try. I also need to get a job, but it's kind of disheartening when for years (yes years, not months) I have been applying for jobs and I either never get a call, or they take one look at me and either tell me that they aren't hiring or that I can't have the job because I have no experience. I'm just applying to stores, or even to my mom's local bagel store (which always has a sign in the front), but I never have gotten anything. In high school, I thought it was the way that I dressed, but I have toned down a bit compared to how I used to dress. I guess that the next time I go into a store asking if they are hiring, I should just go in with jeans and a t-shirt with no makeup on or something. I just don't get it anymore.
On other news, I'm turning 21 on Wednesday. I'm not celebrating it since no one really ever remembers or cares when my birthday comes around. I feel like moving away, far away from everyone and either go to school in another country, or just rent some little house in the middle of nowhere that doesn't cost that much and just stay there until I pass away. I know this sounds depressing, but what can I do when I'm going to be alone on my birthday? Isn't it supposed to happen when you are all alone dying in a nursing home?
So, eventually I'll get around to doing some art this summer. I already gessoed over my other paintings, which I know isn't good, but I can't afford to buy new canvases.
5/12/08
5/5/08
Week 2 Critique Post...
I made a post about last weeks critique (I think on Thursday), so I think it would be wise to also post a response to the critiques from today.
I was actually really happy with the response that everyone had from their projects and the response that I received from mine as well. I don't know if it was because everyone wanted the day to end or because everyone was just really tired from all of the work that they had to do last week, everyone just seemed so much calmer and nicer. I, honestly, am not one of those people that take harsh critiques well, so I was glad that some people at least found my project interesting (especially with Yi Ok and all of the textures!).
As for what I'm going to do with the result of the project, I'm still not sure. My project obviously was not made out of various portraits, or some crazy abstract design (which I think after this project I would have much preferred to do), but either way, I was still happy with both the process and how the overall piece looked. However, after a year of going to SVA, I just do not think that I am fit for art school. I didn't agree with what Cory said about how SVA seems to give too much freedom to the students. I thought though that SVA would have been even more laid back, and I was really disappointed with the fact that we could only focus on drawing people. There is just so much more to this world, and sometimes I wish that I just stayed with taking biology classes... Either way, I think everyone in the class has grown tremendously- not just in their personal artistic style but also with figuring out who they are as people. I remember on our winter break, it seemed like many of us missed each other since we were almost like a family. Since I will not be attending this school next year, I was somewhat sad at the end since I knew that many of these people I would never see again. I could annoy some people on Facebook, and maybe I could lure some people out of their homes during the summer to try to hang out with me, but I know that it won't be the same. I just feel so sad!
So, anyway, here are the pictures to the project as a whole:
(Front cover)
(Inside front cover)
(Table of Contents)
(House 1)
(House #2)
(Haunted House #3)
(Tree house #4)
(Last pages)
(Back Cover)
I was actually really happy with the response that everyone had from their projects and the response that I received from mine as well. I don't know if it was because everyone wanted the day to end or because everyone was just really tired from all of the work that they had to do last week, everyone just seemed so much calmer and nicer. I, honestly, am not one of those people that take harsh critiques well, so I was glad that some people at least found my project interesting (especially with Yi Ok and all of the textures!).
As for what I'm going to do with the result of the project, I'm still not sure. My project obviously was not made out of various portraits, or some crazy abstract design (which I think after this project I would have much preferred to do), but either way, I was still happy with both the process and how the overall piece looked. However, after a year of going to SVA, I just do not think that I am fit for art school. I didn't agree with what Cory said about how SVA seems to give too much freedom to the students. I thought though that SVA would have been even more laid back, and I was really disappointed with the fact that we could only focus on drawing people. There is just so much more to this world, and sometimes I wish that I just stayed with taking biology classes... Either way, I think everyone in the class has grown tremendously- not just in their personal artistic style but also with figuring out who they are as people. I remember on our winter break, it seemed like many of us missed each other since we were almost like a family. Since I will not be attending this school next year, I was somewhat sad at the end since I knew that many of these people I would never see again. I could annoy some people on Facebook, and maybe I could lure some people out of their homes during the summer to try to hang out with me, but I know that it won't be the same. I just feel so sad!
So, anyway, here are the pictures to the project as a whole:
(Front cover)
(Inside front cover)
(Table of Contents)
(House 1)
(House #2)
(Haunted House #3)
(Tree house #4)
(Last pages)
(Back Cover)If I had the time, I would have put these in Photoshop to take off the tile floors, but I'm just so tired! Plus I can't stare at this screen anymore. I'm also wondering how many people are going to still update their blogs. I kinda like my blog, but I think it would be pointless to update this when no one else would read it anymore!
So, after all of this, I hope everyone has a nice summer! If I never see anyone in the class ever again, I hope that everyone has the ability to achieve their dreams, whatever they may be. I will miss all of you!
So, after all of this, I hope everyone has a nice summer! If I never see anyone in the class ever again, I hope that everyone has the ability to achieve their dreams, whatever they may be. I will miss all of you!
5/3/08
my plan backfired...
I decided after some thought that I can't do the book in a pop-up form. The floors are just way too flimsy, and I'm afraid that with putting any figures and furniture on it would make it look too weird, so I decided to redo all of the insides. So, now the book will just have flat pages, and hopefully it would look better. I'm still debating whether or not I should set it up the same way in class like I was originally planning, or if it would look better if I just sat down and described each house while flipping through the pages. I really like the trees I made though, but I don't think it would look cohesive with the flat pages, and I'm not even sure now if the book will even be able to stay open.
Any opinions?
I'll most likely post some pictures tomorrow, but I'm starting to wonder if I really should since it seems like I post too much....oh well.
*Edit*.....
I completely forgot about something! Yesterday morning when I was at the bus stop with all of the paintings that were needed for yesterday's critique, this random guy came up to me and asked me if I would like to show some of my paintings for this organization for local artists in north Hudson county. He gave me their website so I could contact them, and I definitely think that I would send them some pictures of some of my work. It doesn't hurt to try! Plus, since it's a local thing, I won't have to deal with all of the art snobs in Manhattan... or at least for the moment.
Any opinions?
I'll most likely post some pictures tomorrow, but I'm starting to wonder if I really should since it seems like I post too much....oh well.
*Edit*.....
I completely forgot about something! Yesterday morning when I was at the bus stop with all of the paintings that were needed for yesterday's critique, this random guy came up to me and asked me if I would like to show some of my paintings for this organization for local artists in north Hudson county. He gave me their website so I could contact them, and I definitely think that I would send them some pictures of some of my work. It doesn't hurt to try! Plus, since it's a local thing, I won't have to deal with all of the art snobs in Manhattan... or at least for the moment.
5/1/08
we were supposed to update this thing for class, right?
It's really early in the morning...
I actually got done with my paper around 3am, which is so unlike me when it comes to writing papers. I was just kind of worried that there wasn't going to be enough info on Sofonisba Anguissola when I actually took the time to research her, but it only took me about 3 hours to write the whole paper. I'm a fast typer, but a 6 page paper isn't that long. Maybe I should be a writer. Our painting teacher actually suggested me to send in something to that writing thing that the school has, but I really didn't have anything to give them. Plus, I'm not going to this school next year, and my writing is completely crap to a "real" college student. Anyways, I wound up staying up anyhow since I wanted to wake up early to pick up my painting before our 9am class. I have so much caffeine in me I'm starting to shake. The joys of being a college student!
Anyhow, we were supposed to update our blogs reflecting on the semester and other things, but I was stupid enough not to write down what we were supposed to discuss! So, I'll just ramble on about absolutely nothing like I usually do.
I thought that overall, this semester was much better than the last. In this class, along with our painting class, we were allowed to do more of our own thing, and even draw or paint in more of our own styles. Last semester, I was really unhappy since it seemed like I was being pushed too hard to do more realistic styles, when I have no ability to do so. Even if I had that skill, I really do not enjoy art that is too realistic or art that completely copies what that person sees. It might help with practicing your skills, but I know people that only copy what they see without having any meaning behind their work. Either way, my "skill" (or lack of it) has grown a lot this year, and it was really great to see how other people's styles developed as well.
The critique on Monday somewhat disappointed me, but I really do not want to express my views on here. All I want to say is that I'm just really scared to go next Monday, but it will be the last day of class, so I won't be worrying as much. I just don't understand why there is so much concern over every little detail of someone else's project, when everyone's project is not going to be perfect or the way that they originally planned. It seems that everyone in the class has a distinct artistic style of their own, and if they want to develop it in a certain way then that should be their decision and not someone else's. It really bothers me how that even though that we go to an art school, we are still pushed to develop our techniques all in the same way. Or, how about the fact that we have to go to the Met for almost every class, and study styles of art that are not only hundreds of years old but are also only by white and male artists? There are obviously more modern and diverse artists out there that we could be studying, but for some reason we don't. Also, there are African and Oceania sections in the Met, but they are strictly artifacts rather than actual art made by contemporary people. It almost makes it give the impression that people in Africa, South America, Oceania, and Asia have not made any art at all in thousands of years. But who really cares about this topic? Let's just all remain ignorant and happy because ignorance is bliss, right?
Maybe it was a mistake to come to this school. Learned a little bit, met *some* nice people that I may continue to bother after this year ends, but I'm still leaving with a huge debt and disappointment for the future of the art world and my generation (at least the ones that are coming to New York City). I'll just continue with making weird mixed media things, maybe even work some more with dirt (come on, it was fun....). I would also like to combine some more sociological aspects through art as well, since there just seems to be too many people that could care less about this or any problems in the world. Someone has to think about these things. I don't know if I would ever be able to actually do anything to fix any of the problems in the world, but I would like to! Don't know how, but I have many years to think and to eventually do something.
So, I have to "get up" soon and get ready for class. There was something on the news saying that the PATH train isn't working for some reason, but I couldn't hear it since the volume was too low and I didn't want to wake someone up. I was going to take the PATH train home to take bring home that huge painting...FUN WEEK ISN'T EVERYONE????
I actually got done with my paper around 3am, which is so unlike me when it comes to writing papers. I was just kind of worried that there wasn't going to be enough info on Sofonisba Anguissola when I actually took the time to research her, but it only took me about 3 hours to write the whole paper. I'm a fast typer, but a 6 page paper isn't that long. Maybe I should be a writer. Our painting teacher actually suggested me to send in something to that writing thing that the school has, but I really didn't have anything to give them. Plus, I'm not going to this school next year, and my writing is completely crap to a "real" college student. Anyways, I wound up staying up anyhow since I wanted to wake up early to pick up my painting before our 9am class. I have so much caffeine in me I'm starting to shake. The joys of being a college student!
Anyhow, we were supposed to update our blogs reflecting on the semester and other things, but I was stupid enough not to write down what we were supposed to discuss! So, I'll just ramble on about absolutely nothing like I usually do.
I thought that overall, this semester was much better than the last. In this class, along with our painting class, we were allowed to do more of our own thing, and even draw or paint in more of our own styles. Last semester, I was really unhappy since it seemed like I was being pushed too hard to do more realistic styles, when I have no ability to do so. Even if I had that skill, I really do not enjoy art that is too realistic or art that completely copies what that person sees. It might help with practicing your skills, but I know people that only copy what they see without having any meaning behind their work. Either way, my "skill" (or lack of it) has grown a lot this year, and it was really great to see how other people's styles developed as well.
The critique on Monday somewhat disappointed me, but I really do not want to express my views on here. All I want to say is that I'm just really scared to go next Monday, but it will be the last day of class, so I won't be worrying as much. I just don't understand why there is so much concern over every little detail of someone else's project, when everyone's project is not going to be perfect or the way that they originally planned. It seems that everyone in the class has a distinct artistic style of their own, and if they want to develop it in a certain way then that should be their decision and not someone else's. It really bothers me how that even though that we go to an art school, we are still pushed to develop our techniques all in the same way. Or, how about the fact that we have to go to the Met for almost every class, and study styles of art that are not only hundreds of years old but are also only by white and male artists? There are obviously more modern and diverse artists out there that we could be studying, but for some reason we don't. Also, there are African and Oceania sections in the Met, but they are strictly artifacts rather than actual art made by contemporary people. It almost makes it give the impression that people in Africa, South America, Oceania, and Asia have not made any art at all in thousands of years. But who really cares about this topic? Let's just all remain ignorant and happy because ignorance is bliss, right?
Maybe it was a mistake to come to this school. Learned a little bit, met *some* nice people that I may continue to bother after this year ends, but I'm still leaving with a huge debt and disappointment for the future of the art world and my generation (at least the ones that are coming to New York City). I'll just continue with making weird mixed media things, maybe even work some more with dirt (come on, it was fun....). I would also like to combine some more sociological aspects through art as well, since there just seems to be too many people that could care less about this or any problems in the world. Someone has to think about these things. I don't know if I would ever be able to actually do anything to fix any of the problems in the world, but I would like to! Don't know how, but I have many years to think and to eventually do something.
So, I have to "get up" soon and get ready for class. There was something on the news saying that the PATH train isn't working for some reason, but I couldn't hear it since the volume was too low and I didn't want to wake someone up. I was going to take the PATH train home to take bring home that huge painting...FUN WEEK ISN'T EVERYONE????
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